Ive Been Hoarded, So I'll See You Later, Maybe

I saw a commercial recently of a girl who’s clearly with her boyfriend and he makes it clear to her, she can’t see her friends anymore, now this is a more drastic scenario to the idea in my head but has a similar ending, have you ever found it that when you’re with someone, either from the beginning, the middle or the end, you gradually find yourself losing contact with those closest to you, your friends who know you the best, the ones who finish your sentences and have all the punch lines to your personal jokes, do you find that the contact wears thin and then becomes non-existent over time, why is it that as soon as we find ourselves emotionally attached to just one person, all the other attachments start to unravel, I noticed in one case of personal experience, your partner may be too dependent, too much of a flake and in need of thicker skin and a stronger spine, and to not use you as an emotional shield, making you take all the front and responsibility, taking, taking, taking, piling it on more and more until the amount of available time between sleeps is taken up by having to support someone else’s needs and not your own, I found over different times I personally got worn away, much like a stone beaten down by the ocean, my mood goes down, my attitude disappears, and my personality changes, that me as a person crumbles away, time and time again having to rebuild myself to what I once was, trying to use sturdier materials each time, but still getting broken down, isolated and tied to someone who doesn’t give, just takes causing you to lose contact with the people who don’t ever take advantage of what you have to offer, but in return are just there to enhance your needs and you do the same in return, when did relationships become so one sided, and the needs of the one out way the needs of the we, having all the total time basically stolen and hoarded to support someone, who is so I, me, my, that the question of do I deserve this arises, do they really deserve me?

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