Life Boat For 2 Please.

I just had that moment, where I realised and seriously thought, it’s not so much the “it’s all you” , but maybe more realistically, “it's all just me” maybe I'm the one with the problem, maybe I'm the one that should just realise I've got a good thing going here, and should really just open my eyes to what’s important, and I do know that if it’s important to you, it should be doubly important to me, as I'm finding myself loving you with every fibre of my being, finding myself consumed by the thoughts of every you, but on that, I can’t help but lose my way, as well as lose sight of what really matters, in my mind, planning for the future is an important step in a relationship, but what if you find yourself with someone who already has their own agenda and their own goals laid out in a neat set line, do we really have the right to come along and bend and curve their future with our own ideas and plans?, or is it that we should really be picking up another paddle to help sail the course of your partners life boat? Even if the dock you eventually pull into, isn’t one where you see yourself being in any sense and may not even speak the language, when does it become applicable for someone to just be selfish for a change and introduce the “I wants” and the “I needs” into a relationship, or is it that love blinds us in such a way we can’t even sail our own boats anymore?, that a hazy fog clouds your way much like an infatuation does, finding ourselves having to jump ships with the natural instinct knowing 2 rowers are better than 1 right? If I'm honest I've never really had a set goal, a set plan, and as a result always end up going along with everyone else’s plans, just being there to lend an extra hand and support, but thinking on that, will it ever come to the point where eventually I have no one to guide me out of the fog? And ultimately be lost on my journey, when is it ever going to clear up and be my turn?