I Shouldn't Have To Wait For You To Love Me.

Thinking on it now, are we all just scared to be who we really are?, I was looking at my life in its past and present state, evaluating the moments and the goings on I could recall, there was one thing that stood out in my mind that made me wonder, when you’re with someone and you are in a place where you feel proud and excited about who they are and this relationship you find yourself in, so new and full of potential, you just want to show it off to the world right? But what if, we find ourselves in a position where we aren’t able to, where we find it our partners do not reciprocate in these feelings of share and share alike about the status of their relationship, and hide it away behind the other nick naks on life's shelf with everything else that classifies as “no one else needs to know my business”, are we supposed to zip our mouths shut and be as unaffectionate as strangers in public’s eye? Doesn’t that in its self pose the questions of actually being a true couple, or even more so an apparent embarrassment of the situation your partner finds themselves in or maybe it’s just you as a person that embarrasses?, it could be paranoia, it could be just other peoples whispers, but it does make you wonder, why can’t people just be happy with what goes on in their own heads, their own lives and ideas, and not even care to the thoughts of others, if I cared at all what people thought of me and the things they say, I wouldn’t be the person I am today, I wouldn’t be as strong and confident as I am, I find myself wanting someone who can just hold my hand in public, just kiss me here and now, and not even look around after just to see who was watching, because then it would feel like the “me and you” is all there is, and the world around us would just be a blurry passing by, rather than feeling I have to wait for the doors to be closed and the blinds drawn before I can show any kind of affection, no one should ever feel like they have to shut their love away and neither should I, love should be something that you always wear as boldly as a bright shirt or new shoes, and should be something that always makes you hold your head up high knowing that someone cares about you enough to make you feel the rest of the world doesnt even exist when you're together.