Monotone Men.

I have a real bad habit of when the passion in my relationships, fades from them, I usually move on to find someone new, for something different, where everything is unexpected and fresh, so far in my active love life 14 months has been my longest relationship, which thinking about it seriously isn’t that long, is it?, am I always to be evacuating from my relationships when things turn gray? I mean I like the idea of long term love but not at the cost of the heat and the romance and the must admit hot passionate sex. I'm always scared that forever I’ll be always running away when everything turns monotone, or maybe on the opposite side of things I’ll just settle for a love that isn’t quite full and whole, but still you have to be optimistic towards life or you might as well just give up now right? Maybe I just need to look for Mr. right and not Mr. right now in a more constructive manner, I have a tendency to always rush into a relationship, I have never had it where we are friends first, getting to know each other, dating, having the first, second and third date, its always hello we’re together, and then spending the “relationship” together learning about each other until I discover something I don’t really like or cannot see me getting used to, and ending it after several months, which isn’t at all healthy in any sense, I still learn lessons and the what not to do’s, but still thinking on it now, I would go back, and change it all, id make so many decisions, which would basically be the opposites of the ones I actually made, maybe then I wouldn’t be dreaming of a car crash amnesia patient who weirdly resembles me.

New Batteries In Your Radar?

He’s lying to you, why can’t you see it, people can’t read between the lines these days, not even when the lines are miles apart and its all written in red, his gestures are always stiff and infrequent, he’s always touching his face, his throat, covering his mouth every time you ask a question, “so where were you?”, “why didn't you pick up?”, and the answers are so vague and shoddy, but you still buy it anyways, he’s always sweating more and more, breathing heavier like you’re getting closer to the real goings on, shuffling around objects like they don’t want to be there, and acting so awkward like someone being told off by a teacher, I could try to help you by pointing out the lies, I could change the subject abruptly and I can guarantee he would go along with whatever I chose, be it even the colour of your new shoes, which he wouldn’t care about in the slightest, but would still go along with the conversation flip, and even when I make it aware to you that he is clearly covering up something, you’re still acting like a blind moron, and your radar is clearly switched off.